Hi! Happy thanksgiving! I'm sorry I disappeared :( I fail at life. Its been over a year since I updated and been on lj for any length of time. I'm teaching at a very low paying private highschool where I'm looked down at because of many dumbass things buy shallow assholes. Most of my students are decent though this year, which does help. but they're still beyond lazy. But I was extremely overwhelmed with all of that. Kind of depressed too honestly.

Panic keeps me going ;)
May 23rd and October shows were the best as I got to meet the boys. Brendon and Ryan sandwiches are the best ever. Ryan, Bden, and Jon are all super sweet at both m&g and little stories. Spence was nice, just no connection like I had with the others.
Last time I was on here, I was gearing up to meet Pete at the clan store and sam ash. That seems like so long ago. I must change this layout when I'm not on my sidekick too....gross.

Anyways...hit me up on betterwithmusic as my aim sn cause I'm sure everyones changed. I won't flake again! Believe me I need friends.....
<33 Jenny

so i'm bored so i'm stalking the lj of one of ryans friends...and in it shes called out for fucking panic as its a picture with her and ryan and paulina.  She responds, "I'm no groupie, ryan's a gay"
priceless.  thanks for outing him lol.  

other highlights
in a survey 
47.  What Famous person would you like to have dinner with?
Ryan Ross but he usually ditches me for his DAD so, probably Albert Markovski or Max Fischer.

48. What famous Person would you like to sleep with?
see above

Pete Wentz of FALL OUT BOY Meet & Greet
10/21/2007 11:00:00 AM - 10/21/2007 1:00:00 PM sam ash music...i love you
pete says tricks gonna be there too on the fob site, but thats from the sam ash site. 
http://www.samashmusic.com/event/eventlist.asp

WHAT TO GET SIGNED?!??!?!  FOB show the night before and then up at dawn to go here...and then going out for a 21st bday? yeah im gonna be trashed on the 22nd

So I actually hauled my ass out of bed at dawn (well for me 635 is dawn) and dragged my ass to a school to sub and I have no students. They are all on a field trip. I'm here in case someones late to school and misses the trip. It would be fine if it was 1 period. But its 4 out of the 5 that I have to sub. Fucking shoot me. They could have warned me so I could bring a book or something.

Title: The Quickest Way to Ruin a Friendship
Author: Arsenic (</a></b></a>arsenicjade)
Fandom/Pairing: Bandom, Panic!GSF
posted on  damnyouwentz 
Rating: NC-17
Length: A little over 40K words
Summary: The members of Panic! really should talk to each other more. (A straightforward GSF. I promise.)

Starts at brendon joining until bottling incident.  Rated NC-17, but its not a pornfiction story where they just go at it.
I can't do this justice by saying read it.  It's just put my head and heart through a wringer.  And I think I relate to Ryan's feelings a little too much in part of this story.  I think I'll be able to sleep actually tonight. 

For Emily, Because you deserve it :) for your fantastic story, Infinite, Sometimes

Dont forget to tell me what keltie pic you liked the best, just for the fun of it :)
Did you like it?

fuck you pete wentz and your damn meet and greet
thats bullshit...they didnt pick the first 30 people...they picked the first 16.  thats shit because only ock people can go to meet and greet but you can buy a ticket for someone else.  

now im pissed after all the vma fun videos online

Getting Arrested makes Ryan Smile :)

which makes me smile.
also spence and ryan holding hands and getting felt up during the video did it too.

It's like playing wheres waldo in all the vma videos.  where's patd and keltie and haley ?

Panic reherse/behind the scenes from 2006 VMAs...Part of it is they meet the dancers that are going to be performing.  Which means this is Ryan meeting Keltie.  Well not directly video taped, but she talks about how happy she is to be performing with patd. 
um? where was this like last year?

This is love.  Beautiful pictures of two people in love. 
Great Bday Present Keltie :)
Ryan's scarf isn't even killing these.
They just make me smile so much.  I'm happy for them.  I want to be with someone like this.  I used to hate Keltie, but lately she's just made Ryan so happy.  I want him to be happy as he's been through so much.  He deserves it.

Sorry for the messing the flists.


 

There are a bunch of pics that popped up of panic at vma events. They are adorable and might post a few, but I had to post this one. From the mtv site from LAX party with Jon Norris

How many kinds of special is this picture?  Did you wear that shirt like a zillion years ago when you were starting out or was that other curtains that you made into a shirt?  I love you for this Ryan.  Thanks 

Edit: MTV popped up an article about the event, called

Fall Out Boy's Pete Wentz Rocks The Decks At Vegas Party; Panic Members Too Young To Get In

Pete throws rockin' event for his label at LAX, but some underage members of Panic! at the Disco are left outside.

poor spence and brendon, but I hear Jon didn't stay either.  my fav line "Panic! at the Disco's Ryan Ross wore a truly excellent headband and held court in a cushy booth."
MTV is enouraging the headband? no wait, they just didn't want to make fun of the shirt and the headband is less dreadful.

"The only low point of the night seemed to be when LAX's ultra-tight security snared a couple members of Panic in their nets. Seems they weren't old enough to get in (Ross just turned 21, so he was good). " hahahaha he was good.  someone needs to tell them that Jon is old enough, but chose not to go. 

 another one from mtvs site

 i stole these fun clipplings of the kerrang mag from

satsuma77

 

Ryan's favorite shit can be found here
the boy wants burgandy pants...so thats his fav color?  Did you prance around in petes last year and got mad cause they were too small? 
who leaves their back door open while they go out of town for weeks? you are lucky only a bird got in.  the fangirls would have had a field day in your condo
Some item of clothing that you cant fit because its too small? really? i didnt think that was possible

Kerrang's Ratings on Brendon and Pete's outfits at the awards is here
Pete says hes rocking the "Ryan Ross look".  Great so now its a trend.  
But who forgot to tell Pete that ryan's into vests and cowboy shirts with hippy accessories this week?

Spin, Jon, Bren with Tom DeLonge here
OMG FANDOM BRENDON IS HOLDING A BEER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Let's not start this shit again people.
Poor Ryan, he had tonsillitis.  I dont buy that shit as he performed the days surrounding the awards.  I think he just didn't want to socialize.


I want to see patd at some taco stand from the vmas yesterday.  Someone needs to post that shit.

Spencer's Spill 
Chapter 2
NC-17 overall
POV: Spencer
Pairing: Spencer/?
Summary: Spencer gets hurt and his boys have to help him get better.
A/N: Sorry, that took a little longer to update than I would have liked.  Thanks for all the wonderful comments.  Happy 21st Ryan.
I'm tired of Ryan and Brendon stories.  Spice it up people!  

Chapter 1

( It's all kinds of nice )

Decaydance Fest


found on a french forum....it doesnt need words

This is a perfect picture that describes my mood right now.  Thank you Ryan Ross for capturing it perfectly. You were very useful today.
fucking people.  i don't know why i bother trying to get a job in the field i want.  its pointless.

plus i see your stomach and underwear...thank you for wearing boy jeans.
and why are there no ryan pics from decaydance paris? you people suck too.

So I bought tickets at precisely 400...my email is dated 2:01:21..(im assuming there in the west lol).  If im not one of the first 30 and don't get meet and greet, i'm gonna be pissed.  And why does it take two weeks to figure out the first 30? beyond me
and for you listening to me...fucking hot pete wentz.

Just got back from seeing The Higher at HOB.  Good show...they covered "Beautiful girls" and hahaha "LoveStoned".  I think i like their version of Justins song better.  They did "31 Floors" and "Histrionics" which i was happy about, but they ran out of time for "Pace Yourself" Seth said.
first two acts sucked.  The Graduate then came out and they were good.  Then The Higher.  Then I played find the members of The Higher because only Seth came back by the merch.  I picked up the Graduates cd-it was only five bucks.  I was listening to June, the main act, while i was walking around and caught the end of their set.  I picked up their cd for $7.   I got most of the Graduate and most of June to sign the cds.  i had to go catch the train so oh well.  All this Chicago music i was unaware of.  I suck.

Spencer's Spill
NC-17 overall
POV: Spencer/?
Summary: Spencer gets hurt and his boys have to help him get better.
A/N: I'm tired of Ryan and Brendon stories.  Spice it up people!

( Brendon!  )

So Dallas finds me this little video
ITS JON FUCKING WALKER AT HONDA CIVIC TOUR CHICAGO
yeah I was there.  and he was right the fuck in front of me since I was on the right side on top of the barracade.  Apparently Pete even says his name.  Looking at my pictures, I black out apparently in some sort of overload or someshit.  I don't have video cause I wanted pics of Pete singing down like he did when I went to the first chicago date.  I have Patrick pointing to Pete when he sings his name. I have a pic of pete taking off his hoodie.  and then pics of Pete sing/screaming.  There is no Jon Walker.  No Jon Walker dance or whatever they are doing.  I looked at the guy that came out, but i'm like its no one.  Jon's haircut hadn't been seen yet, so I didn't recognize him, which is fine but PETE SCREAMS HIS NAME.  Where the fuck did I go????? I had my Jon radar up as Jim, a roadie, looked like Jon without a hair cut.  AND I MISSED HIS NAME BEING SCREAMED BY PETE WENTZ
I FUCKING FAIL
and so do everyone else since this took almost 2 months to surface

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